Old Folks Home Visit

Yesterday, 10th August 2014, I experienced my first ever visit to a home. Can you believe it? In 18 years of my life I've never done this before. 

Homeless. 

I actually wouldn't consider them homeless because they are living in a home and not living on the streets. Nonetheless, it still saddens me to see people being left in homes that are not theirs. If you know what I mean. Seeing some of the people in the old folks home yesterday, I observed that some of them are not very old. Don't you think it's pretty sad that the not-so-old people being put in an old folks home? Some of them I reckon could live another 10 to 20 years. Being in an old folks home for 10 to 20 years is a pretty long time don't you think?

One of the questions that were asked to the kids and youths who visited the old folks home before we left were

"Why do we visit the old folks home?"

To be honest, I've never thought about it. I ask myself why. Sometimes, as a church, we do things out of obligations. We often give cliche answers when questioned. Eg: "Because Jesus loves the less fortunate." or "Because we want to show them God's love." Yes. The answers are true but how often to we really mean what we say? Do we really love the less fortunate like how Jesus loves them or do we love the less fortunate because don't want to look like a "bad christian"? Are we really going there to show them God's love or are we just going there for the sake of going there? 

My own experience

I'm not sure if you ever noticed but some of this people living in the old folks home are actually lonely and some of them have very low self-esteem. One of the uncles that I was helping during craft time broke my heart a little when I was talking to him. Though the craft was easy, I could see that he perceives himself as useless because of the pessimism that he shows. He kept saying "I did it wrongly. It can't be successful." and it saddens me a lot as I tried to encourage him as we were doing. I kept telling him that he was doing an amazing job and he kept smiling and laughing. He then went on to tell me that he has been staying the in the home for quite some time now and he doesn't have any friends. All he does there is watch tv.

Come to think of it now, my heart breaks. He kept asking me where do I live and due to communication barriers. I don't know if he understood. I think that he keeps asking the same question over and over again is because he longs for a companion. Someone he could often talk to. Someone that actually cares for him. 

One thing that I regret the most about yesterday is not really connecting with the old people due to the craft issues and communication barriers. I would say that I wasn't mentally prepared to do what I was supposed to do. I did not give my all and that really sucks. I hope that next year would be better.

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Croaking in My Head

I truly think that I'm out of my mind. I know what I want. I want to be free. Which job will I study that I won't get tied down? Nothing I presume. 

Currently sitting at the balcony watching a crow and feeling the wind blow. It feels good. It feels right. Always loved nature. I believe that I always will. 

I just went for an interview for degree in primary education in Taylor's and hmmm it is persuasive but I'm too hard headed to be moved. It's too difficult. Circumstances doesn't suit me. With lack of resources I know it's going to be a struggle. But the fruit of the labour will be rewarding. 

I think I'm pretty sure of what I want to do and what I can do now. Hope that my heart doesn't do me wrong. God please lead me. Please guide me. I really don't want to go against your plans. 

Still struggling. Still thinking. Still praying

I know it's a little late. Whoops let me rephrase. I know it's SUPER LATE! but hey it's still 2014 and it's worth welcoming. WELCOME 2014 ☺☺☺ 7 months has gone by and the 8th month of the year is here. Which simply means it's the month where the best babies were/are/going to be born. August babies are the best. Being too bias here. I know. 

Went through so many many many ups and downs in life this year that I think this is the most ups and downs I've gone through. Well, who ever said that life was perfect? NOT ME. But no matter how many ups and downs we may face in life, it gives me peace to know that God is always with me. He is always faithful and His grace is everlasting. 

So the "torture" of being in a ever so cina college surrounded with some not so cina amazing, lovely people. Yes! I've finished my pre-u. Though I kinda missed studying a lot, I'm thankful that I passed the almost unpassable (Why is there no such word?) subject that I never thought I would pass. I was so prepared for sem4 but WOW. This is a miracle that only God could do. Thank You Daddy above ☺

I've left UTAR for 3 months now and I've not started uni or anything. 3 months of being on holiday, the golden question that everybody asks is "So what are you doing now?" Well to answer that question, it's not that hard to guess. What I'm doing is what you're seeing me do. Standing, sitting, eating, talking, answering your question. But on the more serious note, I'm working. Yes I got my very first job in the 18 years of my life. Sadly, my answers are never satisfying enough, the next question they will ask is "So what do you plan to do?" This may be the most hated question in history of hated questions for those who are still thinking what they want to do. The answer to this question is simple. 3 words "I DON'T KNOW" Sad huh. 

2 questions that people need to stop being insensitive to when you ask someone who just finish pre-u. 

1) So what are you doing now?

2) So what do you plan to do?

On a side note, I really don't know what to do and I don't know what I want to be and I don't know what I see myself doing in 5 years time. I know I'm running out of time but I think I would rather think through what I want to do than to jump into a course that I might later on regret. I rather waste half a year thinking than 3 years regretting. Well I guess my current status now is "Still struggling. Still thinking. Still praying."