Test Run

I actually have no clue what to share tomorrow. Life itself is a testimony. Every little thing can be turned around to glorify God.

Since it's the church's youth Sunday tomorrow I guess I'll share something that is relatable to youths? Raymond's sermon will be about why it is important to build up your faith in a young age. Staring at the topic for a few minutes after a few days finally popped an idea into my mind so here's my testimony. 

Life in high school wasn't that easy for me especially the last 2 years. Being teenagers, most of us go through mood swings which I would like to call "the lemony years". It's where you feel life is constantly giving you lemon and making you sour. The first 3 years of high school was the best years I had in high school because being with the same people for 3 years, we developed strong relationship. We practically gotten so close to each other that we could practically communicate without talking. But the best 3 years lead to the worst 2 years. The reason I say that is because I became so comfortable with them that when it was time for us to split up during form 4, it was very hard to clique with new people. I felt that I was literally separated from 2 of my best friends though I still had 1 that was in the same class as me. As time past we made new friends but sometimes people change. And guess what, the "lemony" years came. My best friend decided to form a new circle of friends which initially I was part in but for some reason they started to neglect me. I felt very left out at that time. I tried engaging with them but everytime I tried, I ended up getting pushed out of the circle more. Eventually I was totally out of the circle. Others think we're a close clique because we always sat together in class and do things together but the truth is, I had totally no relationship with them. I was completely cut off.

It was a rough time for me but through that storm that I went through I would say that I grew closer so someone very dear to me even till right now. I was alone but I was never alone. Jesus was with me every step of the way. Honestly it was a tough time at first but I am always reminded that I have a friend who will never leave me and a God who will always love me. I believe that throughout the years of growing up in church, it built up a firm foundation in my faith and a passion in my heart to have a close relationship with God. I believe that God has build me up when I was much younger so that I am able to overcome my lemony years. I actually thank God for that 2 years in high school because when I lost a best friend, I grew closer to friend that is eternal. I believe that God gives and at the same time He can take away. Like the song says "You give and take away, but my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be Your Name." 

Hence I would like to encourage you, to give thanks in all circumstances and continue building a strong and deep relationship with God cause you would never know when would life throw lemons at you. And because with Jesus, we are overcomers.

OLLA OCTOBER ☺

Olla October!!!! So it's the first day of October, a new beginning for the last quarter of 2013 which means we only have a few more months till the new year but before new year comes, Christmas will be here. Okay back to reality, it's October. What's so special about October you ask? Well to be honest, I don't really know but I'm looking forward to see what God has in store for me this month.

Arise is just a few days away and to be honest I'm kinda excited yet kinda nervous. I just don't know how to describe the feeling that's in me right now. In one hand, I'm excited to meet the people that I haven't meet in some time and to see God's people gathered together to pray and worship. Seeing young people with such passion just warms my heart. But on the other hand, I'm nervous because I don't know what to expect. Never would I thought I would be heading the ushering and registration team. I didn't sign up to lead but I don't know how I just ended up heading the team. To be honest, I'm not very prepared because I don't know what to prepare. This is like what Bryan said "If I don't throw you in the river, you will never learn how to swim." So now I'm literally in the river and I don't know how to swim so I guess I'll just learn from there and wait for someone to teach me to swim but most importantly, I need to rely on God so that I don't drown.

So now back to my first day of October, I wouldn't say it's a bad day neither will I say it's a very good day. There were ups and downs but I'm thankful for all that happened today. Let's start from this morning. I'm starting to be more and more thankful for 8am classes because when I travel every morning, I have the privilege to watch the sunrise for 15 minutes in the LRT. To me watching the sunrise and being close to nature is the best feeling ever. It's like being close to God, being back to where all it began and just marvel at His glory. It reminds me that His mercies are new every morning that is why I should rejoice because of all that He's given me and all that is yet to come. Let's just say the sunrise is one of the things that sustains me through the day.

Finishing class at 10am is sometimes a good thing and a bad thing but today it is a good thing because I get to spend time with the one I love. Even though it's just catching a movie together, I truly enjoyed the time we spent together and of course the movie that we watched was one interesting movie. So I'm just glad that we got to spend our first day of October together even the down side of it. ♡♡♡

Was on the phone with Elycia (my queen) for 1hour and 43minutes. This is the first time I talked on phone for such a long time since I have no idea when. My queen oh my queen why do you have to be so fun to talk to? Have you had a moment when you're thinking of someone and that person calls? Well I just had it. She called!!! What a surprise. The longest conversation I had with her since such a long time. Love talking to this girl about God, assignments and life. Not a coincidence that I met her. Yay Ely.

Hence ends the first day of October, a beautiful Tuesday, and this post. Till we meet again. Till then, have a blessed week. 

Friendly Friday

So this marks the end of week 1. I must say what a week this is. Let's say all my classes and lecturers this semester are seriously not bad at all. I owe this all this to Daddy above. Thank You God.

So let's talk about Friday like it was just yesterday. Technically it WAS just yesterday. It was Roshan's birthday!!! Yay Roshan☺ *sings* Happy birthday to you!!!!!

We had lunch at Milanos. It was a rather interesting time. We haven't really spend this kind of quality time together as a group for a very very long time. And thanks to our topic of discussion and what happened after that, I found my texting buddy. Words can't describe how thankful I am so have such a friend that I can really trust and talk to. Emily oh Emily thank you for being so awesome.

We crashed Roro's house after lunch and as usual the sleeping effect started. All of us felt so sleepy, some of us even dozed off while the rest watched Mamma Mia. Whenever I listen to Abba I'll always remember the choir back my high school days. I guess Mamma Mia took effect on the rest of us and we went crazy, like zoo animals let lose from their cages. The reason why we said that is mainly after we started singing and taking all the crazy pictures. Seriously picture perfect memories.

Had a very long day partying, talking, bonding, laughing, emoing, chasing train, discussing, and sharing yesterday with the gang and with the cell group.

Went to Cell Group at night, we did our last chapter of Biblical Theology. It was deep stuff but it was definitely good to know this stuff. The last question posted to us that got us thinking was "What is the whole Bible about?" and "Why do we need to know the Old Testament?" Most of the time as Christians, it has became such a routine that we forget the real meaning of Christianity. I thank God that through this series of Biblical Theology, I've definitely grew closer to God and understand His Word better. Now it's for the application part. Looking forward to more Friday nights to come. 

Sem 2, Day 2

Day 2 of Sem 2. I'm home early. Yay to that but nay to having to wake up so early! But hey look on the bright side, I rather have to wake up early so that I can come home early to nap.

Sem 2 so far has been a bliss. Lecturers are nice, tutors are nice and not forgetting all of us are back together. I really can't stop being thankful for this group of friends that are like a family. This semester, I promise myself no more procrastination, no more last minute work. We have to work hard. I will not tolerate a bad GPA.

So classes started at 8 this morning and guess what I couldn't wake up. At least I woke up and caught the train on time. Thank God for that. I couldn't sleep when I was on the train today. What's going on. I was so sleepy but I just couldn't fall asleep till somewhere after Subang. I was half awake and half asleep. I woke up at Angkasapuri by shock! I didn't know where I was and I kinda panicked but thank God I have some sense to look at the board thing that tells me where I am. Phewwww. Imagine what would happen if I missed the stop. We had our first English For Communication(ECS) class today. Man it's one tough subject. I guess this lecturer is kinda nice. Too early to say though. You would never know the person's true colours until the second or third day. Colours will slowly reveal itself and sometimes it's kinda scary. You would never know what to expect from the person. I do pray that this lecturer will stay nice. Apparently the gang has been blacklisted. First thing she asked when she entered class was where's Roshan. Then it went on to where's Eugene then Eugenie. I'm like what did I do to get blacklisted. I'm sorry if I'm noisy but at least I pay attention in class okay. Apparently this lecturer was "warned" by some other lecturer that taught us last semester that this people are very naughty. I've never been a bad student in my life. I've only been dumb. I'm not bad. I really am not. :( Okay forget about it. I'll prove to you that I'm not a bad student. 

So I came home like before 12 today. Yay. Then I got a miss call from Pn Sarah. I wonder what she wanted. So I text her back and she asked if she could call now so. Gosh it was like kinda scary cause why would she want to call me out of the blues. So she called and I answered. She was like "Hello. How are you?" Then she went on saying "this is about CF." Gosh it was kinda scary cause I don't know where I put all my documents. Thank God she didn't ask me for anything but help. How I wish I could help her out because the last thing I would want to see is my CF die. Even though I've left school for almost a year now, my heart is still very much attached to CF back in Convent. It's amazing how CF itself has been a testimony. God has been working in our CF throughout the years. God was with us through all the persecution and problems faced and He has deliver us. Throughout the year He has been sustaining us and binding each of us together. I couldn't imagine what my life in high school will be like if there was no CF. The moment when I heard the words "CF is dying la, Eugenie. Like really DYING." my heart sank. What would a missionary school be without a Christian Fellowship. And the fact that I know that there are "things" happening in school that are not suppose to be happening just breaks my heart. God, won't You look down on us and have mercy upon us. Please don't pass this school by. This is Your school, Your land and Your people. Have mercy upon us. Have mercy upon us most merciful Father for Your Name's sake. Please save us. In Jesus' Name I pray. Amen. 

Most Productive Day of Sem Break

I would say today would be the most productive day of my whole entire sem break. To cut the long story short, the only free time I have to sit down and absolutely do nothing would be now but technically it wouldn't be considered as doing nothing because I'm blogging.

Sometimes life may catch you unexpectedly and give you a big fat surprise. So today is one of the days that life happened to catch me unexpectedly. Went to the bank with mummy today to run some errands and I saw this guy. He looked familiar yet I can't recall where I met him or is he the guy that I met. We both had eye contact for a while but neither of us opened our mouths. I guess we were both trying to make sure that the person is who we think they are. In the end when my mum got a seat at the bank table place, he came up to me and said "Eugenie right? We met at Youth Prayer Conference." and it hit me like that. He is the guy I thought he was. Eric. I still can't believe what is he doing there. It's such a small world. The last time I met him was 2 or 3 years ago. I thought he was from Perak or something. Well, I guess I thought wrong. He's from Ampang. Whoops my bad. It was definitely good seeing him again. I remember the last time and the only time we met was during 3 or 4 days Youth Prayer Conference(YPC) in my church. Eric and another guy literally treated me like a precious little sister and made me the center of attraction though after YPC I lost contact with Eric but I met John a few other times in other TRAC camps. 

After meeting the person that I didn't expect to meet, I met up with the people that I had expected to meet because it was planned. I wanted to play with candles. It's Mid-Autumn Festival and we decided to burn house. Not open house. Thank you Shan for opening up your house for us to burn. Let's say I definitely enjoyed the time we spent together burning candles and some other stuff. 

How often do you get to hang out with people that you care for, sitting on the floor and burning candles? Maybe some of you have the privilege to do so but I don't. In the last 18 years of my life I would say that this is the first time sitting around a small fire with a group of friend and actually see the beauty of it. Thank you all for bringing me back to kids land. It would be cool if we could do it again sometime soon maybe not around a fire but around a table with a cup of coffee or something. 

And to the "almost ending" of our semester break, let's rock our next sem and may our friendship continue to blossom. May God bless you great bunch of people that walked with me through thick and thin all this while. ♡

♡ Her Story ♡

One of the first questions often asked to people who just gotten into a relationship is "Where did you guys meet?" "How did you get together?" and the golden question "So what do like about this girl or this guy?" 

This is her story of them. ☺

After high school she went to college with no thoughts of making new friends, having fun, moreover getting into a relationship. I guess she was wrong. During the first day of college, her friends were talking about this hot guy and this cute guy that was in her class but none of them caught her attention until halfway through the class where she heard a voice from a couple of seats next to her. It was a indian guy speaking mandarin. In her mind she was embarrassed due to her capability of speaking mandarin and she was blown away by his skills. That was the first. On the second day of college there was an ice breaking game during English class and that's where the story begins. Along with a few others, they started hanging out, facebooking and texting. He drove to college on the second week and he offered her a ride to the train station after class but it didn't turn out as planned. They got lost and he ended up sending her back home. Their homes were at 2 different ends of the state yet he willingly gave her a ride home. 

The ride home definitely ignited something in her. She never seen him the same way ever since. Throughout the whole journey, the talked about family. She wasn't the type of girl that would talk about her family but she just felt so comfortable with him, like they knew each other for a long time. It was definitely an unforgettable night to her. The tears and the laughter.

To cut the long story short, he started sending her home often. Because of that, they started spending a lot of time together, talking about life and anything they could talk about. She liked him but she wasn't sure if he liked her back. Maybe the hints he gave her wasn't obvious enough. She wanted to confirm their relationship because she felt like she was causing him to stumble and it was confirmed. He felt the same way about her. Hence, marked a milestone of their lives and the journey begins.

In the past 3 months of their relationship, there were many ups and downs but what kept her going on is remembering the reasons why she loves him. There are countless things she loves about him and it would be impossible to share all of them but the few most outstanding things the she loves about him are:

1. His faith - They often spend time talking about faith and their experiences in serving on the way home.

2. His sensitivity towards others - He has the gift to know when people are feeling down or discouraged and does his bad to build them up and not tear them down.

3. His humility - Even though he's from a quite well to do family, he does not brag about it neither does he look down on others.

4. His family - He has this very close relationship with his family. He honours his parents and he loves his grandmother very much. She loves the way that his family raised him up and nurture his faith.

5. His justification - He stands up for what is right. Even though she is wrong, he will not say that she is right just to please her.

6. His decision - Between him and her, he has a secret that consist of his decision when he was only 13. His maturity in that age is highly honourable. 

7. He is a man of his words - He keeps the promises that he made. He said he would bring her to Broga and he did though the process was hard and painful.

8. His patience - She is an introvert and he is an extrovert. He always wants her to talk more so that he can understand her better but it's hard for her and it takes time and he is patient enough to let her take her time to open up to him.

9. His leadership quality - Though he does not admit it, she sees that leadership role in him. To her, he is a natural leader and she sees a great future in him in leading the family to the right path.

10. His character - This boy has the character that's worth admiring. He's playful. He's funny. He's friendly and talkative. To her, somehow attractive. 

11. His reflection on God's grace and love - Though she often feels that she does not deserve such a wonderful guy, he always reminds her that his love for her is real and it's true. What undeserving grace that God has blessed her with that she would find such a guy as him. His love to her constantly keeps her close to God as she sees God's love through him.

I'm sure there's a million things she wants to say about him but it's their story to share. All I could say is they're really blessed to have each other. I do hope they will journey through life till death do them part. 

A message from her to him: Thank you for being my best friend and being there for me through thick and thin. I do enjoy our little love letters to each other and the times we've spent together. Thank you for holding me in your arms and letting me know that you love me so. Being with you is just the most wonderful thing that has happened in my life. I love you and I always will. ♡ 

Blessed 2 Days

It has been an interesting 1 week I would say. First week of sem break has come to an end. I don't even know what I've been up to. All I know is I had the best 2 days ever spent with the people I love.

It was my first time being to a Catholic church yesterday. For a person that was born and raised in a Methodist church, I would say that the visit wasn't as bad as I expected it to be. Standing there in the midst of the people it definitely felt weird but there wasn't at all any feeling of discomfort. Even though Mass is run differently from a normal Sunday Service in a Methodist church, we aren't that different after all. At the end of the day our focus is still on the same God and the same Gospel. The Gospel of Jesus Christ. The Gospel of truth. One thing I would like to take with me throughout the whole Mass was God's message,

"Don't stop loving even though people might sting you again and again. God didn't stop loving us even though we hurt Him countless times. God's image/nature is to love. So we, as Children of God bearing the image of God, our nature is also to love."

and also the young people serving. It is always a joy to see young people serving the Lord in various ways be it reading the Holy scriptures to doing whatever they do. It's always good to do something for God that matters. Even the smallest act matters, from a smile to serving at the altar, God sees it and is pleased with it. 

As for today, I'm just glad that I'm still alive right now. It was a tiring day at Bukit Cahaya. The Ironman Challenge wasn't exactly the best but the team did put in lots of effort in organizing it. Good job peeps. I can say the most fun part was still Praise and Worship. As I stood behind, I learnt several things about the youths. You can see it as a positive way or a negative way but I myself would see it as a positive thing as I am very proud of the enthusiasm. I do hope we'll all continue be on fire for God as we are today.